Is this really true? I have my reservations. In the past, I was a strong believer in this- and I still try and think this but I’ve had so many negative blows in the past year, it’s really hard to remain thinking this. Maybe it is true.... that after a million doors shut- one remains open for you, however this I have yet to experience. Maybe when everything does fall into place, I will reconfirm this statement. I hope it does until then I will continue to question it.
Life seems more like a competition at the moment, competition to get the dream job, competition to excel at it, competition to even be happy with it. I have always been a positive person (on the whole), but as PR seems to be so cut throat- you really have to be thick skinned. Surprisingly, I’ve learned more about myself then I ever did in the three years I was at university. Going though, what I like to call the ‘milk round selection processes’ has made me EXTREMERLY resilient. It has also made me adapt, made me driven and made me much more confident. So if i look at it this way, maybe all of this does happen for a reason. I have also enjoyed the process of meeting people- to create an impression on people is always quite a victory- not enough of an impression to offer me a job but still an impression. Furthermore, this industry is the MOST competitive and the MOST popular- by going though all of this maybe my perception of it is realistic enough to ‘get ahead’......or maybe not, I will have to get back to you on that one.
I read an article the other day: Everything Happens for a Reason, by Mira Kirshenbaum. In it, she says that we need this concept in our life because it can hold great meaning to what follows next....seeing these meanings to be lessons, gifts or hidden opportunities. This does make sense in some ways. Interview after interview that I find myself going to has made me learn some lessons. I’ve learned to be honest- it’s certainly the best policy. I think being honest, engaging and passionate about what you’re saying is much better than trying to (excuse my language) lick their arse-although a certain amount of arse licking is needed in this industry. So yes, I defiantly I have learned a few valuable lessons and like I said, have learned about my own personality. BUT still I am yet to see the outcome of the fruits of my labour to believe this fully- and I’m under no illusion there will probably still be a lot of sacrifice and heartache to get myself where I want to be. The path seems to never be easy....but maybe then when something does happen it will only be more fulfilling for me!
At the moment, it’s a 3 steps forward, 2 steps back game, which is always an enjoyable challenge (I’ve learned the challenge is always good as well). Hopefully I have needed to experience the last few months, in order to fully relies my potential-we shall see in due course.
posted by Kate at 05:14